If I was never ‘the one’ for you, stop pretending that I am

If I was never ‘the one’ for you, stop pretending that I am. Stop looking over at me with those passionate eyes just to whisper sweet nothings into my ear. It won’t matter how sweet they sound. It won’t matter how happy they make me feel. It won’t matter how they make my heart melt, how they give me goosebumps and how they make me feel a thousand butterflies in my stomach. Because at the end of the day, they will still be full of nothing.

They still won’t matter to you. They still won’t mean that you actually love me, that you actually want me to be happy, or that you’re actually here to stay. If the excitement, the love, and the passion are all one-sided, then stop giving me false hope. Stop making me hold on to something that never even existed for you. Stop making me believe that I have finally found my own fairytale.

If I was never ‘the one’ for you, stop kissing me the way you do. Stop breathing down my neck and stop giving me that look, the one that makes me turn red, the one that makes me want to drown inside your eyes, and the one that pulls me closer and closer to you. Stop pulling me towards your lips, with a touch that feels like the explosion of fireworks.

Stop holding me down or calming me in your arms every time I freak out about something silly. Stop stroking my hair as I fall into deep sleep and dream about the life we might share.

Stop rubbing my back when my anxiety has me horrified and makes me believe that everything is about to come crashing down.

Stop finding reasons to touch me, to be closer to me just to make me feel like you can’t ever get enough. Stop hugging me tight as I feel my heart beat next to yours. And stop fucking me against a wall every time I’m stressed out and feel like I just need to stop thinking for some time.

If I was never ‘the one’ for you, just come right out and say it. Say it out loud for the entire world to hear. Look into my eyes and tell me like you really mean it. Tell me that I’m not ‘the one’- the one that you were always waiting for, the one you always dreamed of meeting, the one who you’re actually serious about, the one who crosses your mind even in the days when you’re busy, the one who can make you smile when everything seems to be going wrong, the one you want to spend all your nights with, and the one who you can imagine a future with.

Tell me all of this even if it makes me cry. Even if it really breaks me. Even if I keep begging you to change your mind. And even if I keep asking you what went wrong. Just don’t give up. Don’t make yourself stay. Don’t force yourself to be a part of something that can’t even make you happy. If I was never ‘the one’ for you, just be honest with me. Give me the cold hard truth even if you think I can’t handle it.

If I was never ‘the one’ for you, just let me go right now. Let me be free- free from your thoughts, free from your presence, free from your love. Let me discover what the world actually holds for me. Let me wallow in the pain and heartbreak of losing something that felt so right and so amazing. Because if you don’t do all of this, I’m just going to keep falling harder. I’m going to start imagining an entire future with you.

I’m going to start obsessing about all the cities we will visit, the things we will see and all the road trips that we’ll go on together. I’m going to start dreaming about the kind of house we will build, the pets we’ll have, and the things we would do all day. I’m going to start telling all my friends and family about you.

I’m going to discuss you endlessly with my sister and let her believe that this is actually turning out to be something real, something very spectacular. I’m going to start thinking about how you will fit in with my family and how I will fit in with yours. And I’m going to start waiting for the day you will ask me to be yours forever.

If I was never ‘the one’ for you, just get up and leave. Because right this instant, I feel so dangerously in love with you. And I hope to God that you can feel this too.

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